Obsession

What is an obsession? Websters' defines it as a persistent disturbing preoccupation with an often unreasonable idea or feeling; broadly : compelling motivation. That is a rather bland description of a powerful word - one that rules, one that controls, one that subjugates. An insistent worm that drills its way through your head - every waking and sleeping second. A misconceived fulcrum around which your thoughts revolve, which dictates which way your mind's balance swings, your actions, your reactions, your activity, your passivity. Its the inside of your eyelids, when you close them, its the back of your head when you look ahead, its the middle of your forehead when you are lying down. Its your entire being. Its the single most influential thing that decides how you feel when you wake up in the morning, how you feel when you retire for the night, how you spend the day nano (or is it pico) second to nano second. What am I saying, it does not decide - it IS how you wake up, how you sleep, how you exist. It is the air that you breathe, it is the music in your ears, the tears in your eyes, the highs, the lows, the only thing right now in the world worth living for.
But, what do you do when this obsession is another human being? Do you become a monster? Do you get trapped within the confines of another human being's persona? Do you fight yourself? Do you punish yourself for being weak? Do you derive masochistic pleasure from obsessing further? Do you analyse, over analyse to death the little details, read meanings where none existed? Do you ask for justifications where none are required? Do you retain your sanity by holding onto the obsession alone? Do you feel a little lesser of a human being every time you give in to the obsession? Does it tire you out? Unable to think of it, unable to get away from it...giving into an orgy of emotions, everytime you obsess, pacify your ego every time you give in, what is it that drives us to such dark depths, ignominies that once would have been scarcely tolerated are now accepted as a matter of course. WHAT IS THE WAY OUT?